1:25 A.M.

How can you ever stop your parents from fighting

I'm fully aware of this is not google searching engine.

No matter how old you are their fight can be damaging, heartbreaking

Leave you frustrated

Especially when you trying to finish your assignment.

All the things in romantic novels are fking fake

There will never be this perfect male character anywhere

Strong, thoughtful, love you no matter what.

He can be icy sometimes, but he can always explained to you why.

He cares, he's possessive. He'll only do crazy things with you.

My dad will never be someone I like and admire.

Every time after a big fight

It strengthen my thought of saving my mom from it all.

He has character flaws. He is complicated and he can't even understand himself.

He refuse to admit he is in the wrong.

And this recent years he even made mom cry.

I, have never understood a loving caring father figure could exist.

/no use in crying hold them back/

I don't know what to feel anymore.

many more people have many more problems I guess.

He's ugliness gives me shivers.

He was roaring, screaming, smashing things cursing like a real housewife

I've never seen my mom yelling unreasonably and she never will.

he is obscene

he needs to be salvaged

We all do.

12:41 A.M.

Don't know why I can't sleep tonight.

Maybe I was craving for human comforts again. Useless.

I can't stop thinking and deny the feeling of blood pumping in my veins, West Point.

Maybe I was a soldier in my previous life.

Do you believe in reincarnation?